I think I have written about, or if you know me talked about the worries of becoming a dad. It wasn't the diapers, or providing...it was the emotional side of things. I knew how I wanted to be, but wasn't sure if those emotions would reveal themselves when faced with this infant that would enter this world with my genes. Well, today was another day of reassurance like many that have preceded it. Makeena is sick for the first time. It isn't ridiculously sick, just what we would call a common cold. With every little breath that seems to hint at a little more fatiguing than normal, with every sneeze, and with every cough, it makes me ache all over. I can't stand the fact that she is feeling miserable and I can do nothing about it. I have thought in my mind privately the detailed torturous things I would endure to take it from her, but I can't. Tonight it will be another night of staying up all night, because I cant sleep, I must check every minute to make sure she is breathing. So it begins, this saga of fatherhood.
It makes me think; many things are going to happen to my little girl. Some of her own choosing, and some not, that I can do nothing about. All I can do is stand my and love her. She will make choices in her life that are going to make me ache like her weezing tonight. I pray I will hold her to let her know I lover her and check on her every minute to make sure she is ok...just as I will tonight. Maybe it is too much introspective analysis on my part with me and my little girl having a cold....but this is what I think about. Her sneeze at 3 months old triggers wonders and hopes for the future.
So yes... I don't know where...and I don't know when.... but somewhere this little girl has taught me what exactly unconditional love is.
Thursday, December 25, 2008
So today was Christmas. And Makenna decided to give us a wonderful present. She laughed for the first time (well, technically she has laughed before while dreaming, but never awake). It was great because it was just after present time, and the video camera was out and handy. Glad we got it on film.
Saturday, December 13, 2008
A lot of time during my fall goes into the New Cov Children's Christmas Musical. This year is all done and behind us. It was a big success as far as Kid's musicals go. The only complaint I had is that it was too good. All of the kid's did everything they were supposed to do . They knew their lines. No kid picked his nose the entire time, ran off stage to mom, or any of the moments that people love about Kid's shows. But I was proud of all the kids. I doubt any of my readers are going to spend 35 minutes and watch it, but just in case, here it is. This is unedited video that the Weavemaster shot. Props to him and his team for making me look good.
Untitled from Chad Davis on Vimeo.
Untitled from Chad Davis on Vimeo.
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
Well a lot has happened in life this year. I haven't been in the water since late August during my wreck class in San Diego. Since that time, I have moved, had a kid, and taken on too many responsibilities at church. The Kids Musical is Dec. 7th and I have planned my first Open Water course starting the next day. I have been feeling withdrawls. I think I am going to try and get away for a quick week in January to do some diving. Bonaire to do some tech diving? Bermuda because I have never been? Key Largo because it is familiar and easy? I don't know. We will see how it transpires.
If you know anyone that wants to learn how to SCUBA dive now is the time. Catalina prices are cheap to stay this time of year and the water temp at 60 ft is about the same as in the summer. Give me a shout!!! There are still a few spots available for this class. The Pool session is Sat Dec. 13 and the Ocean Dives in Catalina are Dec. 20 and 21.
Gonna get back into a regular teaching schedule. And add Sean to your list if you want to hear about some diving. Sean is the other instructor at Aquasports and just started a blog.
And if you are curious about that pic, which I also use as my profile pic, it was taken in Bonaire a few years ago. (Yes I know it wasn't white balanced, I wasn't taken the pic, don't blame me). That is SCUBA MAN. He is a top secret location located somewhere in Bonaire in about 120 ft of water. You can't see it, but he also has fins sticking up from the sand. If you hang out and dive with me in Bonaire, I might just take you there.